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She posted this on OF
"hii.. šŸ„ŗ time to be honest
i couldn't post for a while.. at some point i wasn't sure if i was gonna come back at all tbh, still doubting and overthinking if i can actually continue as i used to and keep going like this..
some of u noticed i quietly took some stuff down. i didn't say anything bcause i didn't know what to say.. i still don't rly, i'm sorry, i'm just letting the words out. but i feel like i at least owe you some explamation and not just disappear fully.. leaving worried those who actually care
i got some mean comments in my dms after my last post.. it retriggered a lot of stuff that i thought i'm successfully healing from, and now once again i couldn't stop but look at my door every little second. i just wanted to run away and hide somewhere where no one could find me ever
n i know.. i know what people will say. "u signed up for this. this is the internet. just block n move on." oh i've heard it all in my head already, trust me..
but the thing is.. some of u know my story. some of u were here when i talkedd about why i developed my anxiety in the first place... that feeling of being watched. i worked so hard to feel safe again. n then one comment n im again sitting in my room scared to open the curtains for sunlight to come in
n the other ones.. the ones saying im fake.. pathetic.. saying the shy thing is an act.. that hit a diff place tbh. bcuz i already ask myself every single day if im enough.. if im doing this right.. if i belong here at all?? n then someone says it out loud n it's like.. oh. so it WAS true. and basically the voice in my head was right all along
i think people forget sometimes.. im still a person. not a plastic doll. not an ai. not a made up anime character or smth. when u say something mean... it crashes me inside. and i'm pretty sure so many girls on here r dealing with the same.. n we just absorb it n keep going n smile in the next post and i'm genuinely just tired to deal with it, idk if i can
i don't know what im doing rn honestly.. am i trying to callout those who treat people like this? but fr if you do, please just unsub, why you even here if you don't like me?..
anyway i cleaned almost half of my page cause i couldn't look at it anymore. i want to clean more, but i just don't have enough powers yet, i haven't been able to film, i had to physically move somewhere else. thor kept nudging me to get up n i kept telling him in a min.. n then a min becomes hours..hrs turn into days
i feel like i want to stay, but i truly don't knpw if i will. and i wanted to be honest with u about that
the ones of you who have been always kind to me.. who actually see and support me, ty šŸ’— i love you
i almost feel like i owe at least all of you to stay, lock in and keep going
but idk what im gonna do yet. but i just needed to say and be honest with you before i went quiet again..šŸ„ŗ hope you all doing alright though, thanks for reading it fully if you did"
 
"Time to be honest", she could probably start by admitting she uses an agent or even the fact that she's Russian. Sounds like sympathy ploy to keep people subbed.
 
omg. I read half of it. I also have anxiety disorders, social phobia. I also struggle with this because living calmly is much cooler than dealing with these thoughts. I hope she will come back and give me some light, because I myself am charged with emotions from bright people
 
I don't know, anything's possible. because I don't know her personally. but it doesn't bother me and I don't buy content from her (I don't have money for Onlyfans whores)
 
I heard that you can't trust a whore's tears. she makes good money anyway and lives on it. so her tears are worth money too
 
I've read her story on twitter and tbh showing off your body on the internet to heal from being r@pe is a very interesting decision so don't fully buy on whatever she said lol
 
Sounds like another bs when at the same time you are selling ā€žshy virginā€ story.
Sure IF if happened then itā€™s sad but itā€™s hard to believe her in anything.
 
Wasn't there some talk about her lying how she's wasian while being slavic? Pretty much everything that comes out of this chicks mouth is a lie.
 
eh, probably true, many of these girls selling content have been either r@ped or have some shaddy past, got a shitload of problems they don't usually tell and sometimes crash emotionally live on cam (then some dickhead records it and puts the vid on his ''funny and extreme vids'' website to make money out of it)
about not telling she is russian and stuff I guess makes sense to share the minimum or no information at all specially in this business
who knows anyway, welcome to capitalism, isn'it fucking paradise?
 
yes, of course it's paradise. coming into a good business isn't exactly in the right psychological shape. It's like arriving at a race in a Ferrari, but the Ferrari has a very weak engine
 
Is there a dump with her latest redgifs before she deleted her account?
I accidentally deleted all my vidsā€¦ trying to recover them.
 
ty sir. surprisingly, couldn't seem to find a specific few.. but these are great.
Does anyone happens to have WeakDentalWyvern.mp4, PerfumedVitalGoldenmantledgroundsquirrel.mp4, OpulentPeacefulDormouse.mp4, PowerlessDismalAnt.mp4, DimBestIrukandjijellyfish.mp4, TurbulentCompetentAmazonparrot.mp4, MinorDelightfulSwallowtailbutterfly.mp4
used these vids in an edit i was making
 
Sheā€™ll never do BG. Also doubtful about anal dildo. I saw only 2 vaginal dildo but both are mid and sheā€™s refusing to record more.
Sheā€™s earning too much from simps who pay for same content-different outfit.
Also Iā€™m amazed that ppl pay for those posts ā€œif we hit goal Iā€™ll do another oneā€ - thatā€™s obvious scam as she donā€™t post nudity on her feed.
 
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