Girls like her are just afraid to commit to being internet sluts. They like the idea of getting money for their bodies but they dont consider themselves porn creators and see it as lower than what they do. Which is why a lot of bigger girls dont even go nude they expect people to pay them just in case they ever do go nude. She also hopes by not going extreme there will be a guy out there that will take her seriously and treat her like a princess. After she hits 30 reality will hit and either she will start doing my hard stuff or she'll be a born again Christian