I've been attracted to Elise for many a year, since before she left YouTube for a while, since before she had her nose job, since forever ago.
I'm so uninterested in any of this OF stuff because she makes herself look so awful with the goofy makeup and wigs. I am curious if I'm the only person that has zero blood in my penis when looking at her "NSFW adult content."
I think she also ruined it for me because I subscribed to her OF around the time last year when she needed money for all that legal stuff and I thought, alright, I'll give her $5. And at the exact time I subscribed, she stopped doing anything with it. I got maybe two replies from her in the messaging system, and they were just short and... Well not sweet. Just made me feel like "well if you wanted me to subscribe here where you're trying to entice me to purchase extras or something, you're really failing at your job."
I know it's very much a "character" as well, but I wonder if she can even be legitimately sexy at all. She goes to such extreme lengths to not be sexy while trying to be sexy and it all just hurts my brain. There's what, 4 billion women on the planet, and she's just not doing enough to stand out.
It's sad because of how I have been attracted to her so much but at the same time I'm almost repulsed. Does any of this goofy ramble make sense, and does anyone feel this way or am I just a sad little goofball?